So here I am in a house that still does not feel like home. We've been here for 3 months so far and it's been one ordeal after another. We are renting, thank the good Lord! Our latest adventure has been the 18 dead mice that were smelling up the entire first floor. It turns out that decomposing mice carcuses (carcusi?) smell amazingly bad! Not that I would have questioned that. So now the house is LOADED down with 2/3's a case of mice poison...I think that's a LOT by the way the "critter control" guy said "
2/3's of a case", or maybe that's justification in the amount we were charged. I would have paid pretty much whatever he asked after he pulled out 16 of the dead mice from the wall. I made Neil pull the other 2 out at 10 pm later that night when I decided it still reeked (I was right!).
We are renting a 120 year old farm house that's been remodeled (mostly...not the basement, it's really a cellar, exactly what you would expect a cellar to look like - CREEPY! with lots of entrances for critters!). It sounded very cool from Virginia Beach, "ooooh, an old farm house with those great old pine floors". Now it's just cold and disturbing. We're pretty sure it's haunted, or maybe that's just a result of the amount of wine I've been imbibing so I can pretend that I don't care that I've met NO ONE here.
I've unjustly decided that I don't like the Target here, the grocery store here, pretty much almost everything here. It's not fair, I realize that. But how long does it take for a new place to feel comfortable? I still remember my daughter brilliantly asking "mom, when does the new carpet become the old carpet?" Such insight from a little girl. I wasn't allowing juice and food in the family room with the "new" carpet, but she keenly knew that the newness would wear off and then it was free-rein for snacks in front of the tv. But when does that comfort come?
We could leave this town and no one would even notice. I have a feeling it will takes years to get entrenched here. Maybe that's true with anywhere. As I've gotten older I've come to appreciate my friendships and realize how rare those true friendships are. It's not all that often that you find people you really want to be with. It's especially true of couple friendships, where both members of the couple like each other. Shouldn't we be making a huge effort to keep those going? Can you do that if you aren't in the same city? Will we find that again? I suppose so, but I think it's going to be a long time before we get there again. And how does that come? Church, clubs, PTA, charities, how? I certainly haven't figured it out yet.